A Known Loner
Friday, May 25, 2007
11:41AM - and in personal news....
It's my Panda's birthday today! My Panda, for those of you who don't know, is really Andy who I've been dating for about four months now, and he turns 26 today. I don't think I'll be able to see him until tomorrow because he's working, and it's also Sarah's birthday today. She's throwing a BBQ at her house later. Should be a blast. Great weather for it, too! Holy God I'm so glad it's warm!
Still technically unemployed. I've been applying to professional jobs, but it seems like an utterly useless gesture. And I can't believe how many customer service places I've applied to and still nothing. I suppose I should've taken that call center job...but then again, I don't think I would've been able to do what I did with Majesitc Mountain (a local film company who hired me to write a movie trailer). Ugh. Life, financially, blows at the moment. Especially now that I had another coritzone injection in my backside. $1653 total. No insurance. On top of student loans. And no job! Whoopee!
Sunday, May 6, 2007
11:36PM - Spider-Man 3 Review
Read my review for the new superhero flick here! No real spoilers, but I gotta warn you that I had some not very nice things to say about it!
Thank you everyone for your support!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Anyone who hasn't heard the news yet, I've decided to become an online freelance writer. In order to get paid for my work, I need to generate a certain number of hits to my article. My first article is a review for the movie Little Children (DVD), which you can read here. If you can spare a moment, please visit this website, even if you don't have time to read the brief article. Many thanks!
And if you haven't picked up the Spring issue of Bitch magazine, check it out, page 18. Seriously!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
4:10PM - work dilemma
So, I've been working at Cumberland Farms in Portland for a week now. And I just got a phone call today about another job at an Episcopal Church in Yarmouth.
This week at Cumby's I'm working 32 hours @ $8.25/hr = $264/wk.
If I get the job in Yarmouth I'd be working 24 hours @ $11/hr = $264/wk.
The job at Yarmouth is 9AM-3PM. 6 hours/day, 4 days/week.
This week at Cumby's I'm working 3-11PM, although times may vary from week to week. 8 hours/day, 4-5 days/week.
I'm not so sure I know what to do, and hey, I might not even get the job in Yarmouth. But that would be good because it would be putting my skills to work using Microsoft Publisher (which I guess is equivalent to Adobe PageMaker and Photoshop) writing and publishing the church newsletter.
Guh. Neither job is what I REALLY want for myself, but right now, I can't afford not to work.
But the job in Yarmouth would help me gain more experience for a job I may want in the future (i.e., publishing & layouts). And with Yarmouth I wouldn't have to be on my feet all day.
P.S. They want to start training in Yarmouth TOMORROW!!! I'm supposed to work from 3-11 at Cumby's!!!
In other news, I may be buying a 1979 Mercedes-Benz the color of Candy Apple Red - how sweet would that be?
Sunday, October 15, 2006
12:42AM - what the fuck is happening?
i want to like myself again. i thought i was on that path...but i'm making the same mistakes. i'm acting like a fool. and i'm taking others down with me.
this time of introspection and self-construction is being put on hold, and instead i'm filling a void with distractions.
where is my path in life? have i completely lost sight of it?
i heard a line tonight in the movie The Departed. it went, "Death is hard. Life is so much easier." well, it's really hard to not see it the other way around right now.... no, don't worry your pretty little heads about anything.
little miss homemaker...little miss homewrecker. guh.
and i love him so much that i hate him. weird, huh?
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
9:46PM - p.s.
i have mono. found that out yesterday, started taking medication for it today. i'm already feeling a little better, but still really shitty and it's very difficult to swallow.
today i got another call from my doctor regarding my liver. it seems as though the enzymes are elevated or something so i'm at risk for damaging my liver if i consume any alcohol or too much Tylenol--not that i was planning on boozing any time soon, but just knowing that my liver's at risk kinda scares me.
Monday, August 21, 2006
and it's not strep, but i did get tested for mono, and if that's not it, then i'm getting a prescription as if i'm being treated for tonsilitis. thank god something's being done about this! ugh, i don't ever want to go to the emergency room again! my doctor's so much better! i should be getting a call regarding the results soon....
Type in "yournamehere looks like" in a google search and list the first ten.
Meredith looks like a million dollars in her tailored suit, short skirt and high heeled pumps, as she begins to parrot a mumbo-jumbo of technical ...
Meredith looks like a bass lake and it is fishing like a bass lake.
Meredith looks like she has orange elf ears!
Meredith looks like a wild old event alright.
Meredith looks like she just got whacked over the head with the news.
Meredith looks like shit. Seriously.
Meredith looks like she's on oxygen diet (way to skinny!).
Meredith looks like she's about fifteen.
Meredith looks like she has to go pee.
Meredith looks like a future set-up/closer, and Peavy’s going tomorrow.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
1:26PM - unhappy home
My mother and I have been at each other lately (what else is new, you ask). I really need to get out of here. It's way too long and layered to get into the reason why she and I are arguing all the time, so I won't bother. If you know my mother at all and have retained anything I've said about her in the past, then you can probably figure things out on your own. Most recently, though, she gave me a hard time about not wanting to go to the family reunion this Sunday (which is held EVERY first Sunday of August), because, according to her, I hate her family. Which is totally untrue. True, some of them I do feel awkward around, for various reasons I could only come to find out by really getting to know them, but overall I don't hate them. In fact, I've been discovering lately that I really enjoy the company of some of them, like my mom's cousin Mary Lou. Right now, in my life, I really feel like Mary Lou and I can relate on a level I don't with other people (even though she's in her 60s), and I feel like we understand each other in ways that others would otherwise overlook in us. But my mom tries to make me feel like shit for "hating her family"--and she does use the word "hate;" a bit dramatic, if you ask me--even though I get to see her entire family at least once a year, if not two or three times. Whereas with my father, I can't remember the last time I've seen some of his family.
Ugh, anyway, the reason why I especially don't want to go to the reunion this year is because Lee and I have been planning a weekend trip for a while now, but just couldn't find a good weekend to do it until now. We're going to New Hampshire, and possibly Massachusetts--sounds like he's got something up his sleeve that he wants to surprise me with, I dunno--to visit towns with our names.
I just hope I'm over my cold by then.
Work has been going well. This Saturday I'll probably be making my first phone calls to recruit donors, and I'm excited and nervous about it, but I think I'm just about ready. I couldn't have asked for a friendlier working enviroment.
God, I hate her, I really do. I hate the worthless blob my mother has become. She gives me shit, as soon as she comes back from being OUT, about watching something during her soap opera hour (WHEN SHE WASN'T EVEN HOME!!!!) And I just caught her nodding off. I hate watching her waste the last third of her life plopped on that couch in front of the TV, awake or asleep, a plate of various unhealthy foods in her lap or on the coffee table. But what the fuck am I supposed to say to her to get her to stop? If she doesn't want to stop, if she can't recognize that it's a problem, then she's not going to stop. And I don't want to stick around much longer to watch her die that way.
Sunday, August 6, 2006
1:34AM - coolest.thing.ever!
i found $20 today (aug. 5th). it was stashed away in a box full of old letters i'd saved, and i just happened to be going through them tonight when--BAM! a crisp $20 bill revealed itself.
yeah, that totally made my night. that, and the large wafflecone ice-cream with three different flavors--i'm surprised i didn't puke!
oh, j/k about not getting a call back from my temp. agent, p.s. i got a job with the American Red Cross as a sales rep./donor recruiter. i started today (aug. 5th) by watching a couple of videos (one being a sexual harrassment video, which is always entertaining--quality acting!!!), and reading/filling out papers on policies and procedures...kinda boring, but when i go back on monday i'll be learning the computer program and listening in on the calls to donors. so, i guess i'll do a little recruiting while i'm at it now....apparently there's a HUGE shortage of blood donation in the new england region, so if you haven't given blood before, or if it's just that time again, totally do it! i think when i'm finished with this job i'll go out with a bang and donate blood--i've never done it before! the job is only 16 hrs a week for four weeks, but i think that will be a good schedule for me for now. maybe i will take up a job as a waitress just to score some extra spending dough. we'll see, though. one thing at a time, one thing at a time....
P.S. I rented a few movies tonight, and I started by watching Me Without You, which was interesting, had a great soundtrack, very realistic situations (I could relate on multiple levels), good acting, some corny moments, awkward scene transitions, and a very abrupt ending. Overall pretty good. Next up, either The Basketball Diaries or Broken Flowers.
And I'm going to go now before this moth (or the fisher cat, hehe) eats me alive!
Friday, August 4, 2006
1:32PM - get your sexy on!
So, still no word from my agent regarding the Red Cross temp job. This sucks.
Last night was really fun, though. Actually, all day was really fun. I went to the beach with the girls; it was overcast, yet I still got a sunburn. And I saw someone from UMF working at Amato's. Then we took a break and got back together to go out to Portland. We went to Kristi's Thai place and then to some clubs in the Old Port. Lava Lounge was okay, the music was better than last week, but still not great. And Liquid Blue kinda...blew-ha! The DJ was playing crappy remixes of things and a lot of the music skipped. Then we went to Styxx which was just awesome! I've been impressed with it every time. Great DJ, hoppin dance floor, cheap drinks, jello body shots-which make things entertaining-and I bumped into 3 more people from UMF! I had a great time, although I'm kinda sore today. I should take it easy for a little while--don't want to get sick or nuthin'.
Tonight, I have another date with Lee...dinner & a movie I guess--don't know what he's got up his sleeve, but I'm excited anyhow. Maybe we'll go see that new Robin Williams movie; I guess that's been our thing from the start--going to see creepy Robin Williams movies (i.e., Insomnia & One Hour Photo). I can't wait 'til we go on our road trip adventures!
I came across a job posting looking for blog writers. Perhaps that's something I could do...? Blogging really seems to be where it's at right now, but I just don't know if I could get a handle on it, plus I'm just so wary about anything online, especially when it involves a company that claims they'll pay you--I mean, how legit are these things...?
P.S. Sooooo obsessed with JT's new song!!!!
Saturday, June 3, 2006
my journal is giving me a headache. and i don't feel like fucking around with the color scheme anymore when i've already put so much effort into it and now it's not even working the way it's supposed to.
so, fuck it. i'm moving my personal stuff to my writing journal, bleachyhead, but it's friends only so if you want to view it then send me a message. for now, i'm out. catch ya later.
Monday, May 15, 2006
5:05PM - some summer goals
~have yard sale -- for real, this time. like, really real. i know i always say that, but it WILL happen this time! really!
~post resume online
~buy new car or suspend insurance depending whether i get a job and a place to live in the city
~consider new places to live
~buy a full size mattress and box
~catch up with old friends
~tan (whenever the rain stops....)
~beach it up
~hotel party/camp with lillith fair
~continue novel and comic writing
~work at smitty's??? if i need the money....
i'm sure i'll think of other things to do....
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
okay, i don't know why my LJ's fucked up, and why the background's pink, but i'm not happy about it.
zombie movie...i don't want to talk about it.
mostly i just wanted to say that my father digging through tons of articles about our family has been quite interesting. he showed me an article the other day that was about a relative of mine, frank "parky" grace, who was the leader and founder of the black panter party in new bedford, massachusetts. he was convicted of shooting a drug dealer (in order to clean up the streets) and spent quite a bit of time in prison for it. i guess a lot of people protested to get him outta there. it was really neat to read about him and to see a picture of him. and it's nice to hear that there are other activists in my family, though i don't think i'll be shooting a registered sex offender any time soon....
graduation's may 13th...i don't want to talk about that either.
and it's always interesting when the past catches up with you. and boy, isn't it a small world--er, state after all?
Friday, March 24, 2006
3:45PM - i'm not dead
i'm just a little too busy for life, that's all.
Friday, February 24, 2006
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
3:39AM - p.s.
here's what really happened today:
*saw "8 below" at smitty's w/ mumsy--fucking cried the whole time
*hung out with mike dunn, his friend collin, and troy at anthony's kitchen until close
*had my first real bar experience at $3 dewey's with mike and collin
*saw "match point" with mike and collin
*hung out at another bar with mike until close
*hung out at denny's with mike until 2:30 A.M.
*got pulled over for speeding--my first time being pulled over for anything since i've been driving--and was let off, not even with a warning....
Wednesday, February 8, 2006
8:51AM - THAT'S IT!!!!
NO MORE CAFFEINE!!!!!
Friday, January 27, 2006
daaaaammmn! i need to update this thing! but not right now. i'm tipsy and i need to straighten my hair. i know. weird, huh?
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
so. this is roughly how a normal spine looks like:
now here's roughly how my spine looks:
note, amongst the crappy computer sketch of slashes dashes and ls, the bottom of the second picture. that is my tailbone that i apparently dislocated when i was about 10 years old. this past summer, my tailbone had begun to hurt, so much that it was at times unbearable to sit for more than 20 minutes.
this last friday i had an injection of cortizone shot up in that little nook of my spine to try to get rid of the pain. but not only did i have the cortizone, which i could feel entering my body, but they had to first numb my ass. the actual procedure took only a minute or two, but let me say that those couple of minutes are something that i never want to experience again.
i still need to give it a few days to see if it actually worked. my butt still kinda hurts from where the doctor shot me.
some of you wanted to know. so i just thought i'd diagram it. that is all.
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